Our life journey is never the same especially that journey after a break up with someone. We all try to occupy that time that was given to someone else with other things. It’s like binge watching a Netflix show and when it’s done you are just laying around. Trying to figure out what is next. You click on a bunch of shows, start watching, get bored and then move on to another show. Until you find something new you can binge watch for the next million seasons.

I was in a situation after dating someone for some time where I was just trying to occupy my time with stuff I let go. Hobbies I got rid of, sleep that I missed, books I half started and additional opportunities that I missed. You don’t realize how much time you give to someone until they are no longer in your life. What you do notice is the people trying to occupy that space. I am a person that doesn’t like to give up my free time and space to just anyone. I’ll give you a little bit but not all of it, especially not immediately. It’s always those moments you aren’t looking for someone that someone just wants to come into your life and just be amazing. Like, “Who the fuck sent you so I can send you right back but not send you right back.” I am the type of person to immediately tell you, “I am not looking for anything I am just trying to live life” only because I know I am not ready for something new at this moment. The moment you want to keep trying you honestly become something temporary. I read you the warning label and you decided to keep going, I am not the one to blame with what happens next. Sometimes you become something temporary until someone is ready to move on (without you at times). A lot of time you find yourself in a situationship or become someone’s fuck buddy.

“Let’s grow/build our friendship,” is a line that I hear and I don’t mind. Don’t think it will go further than that sometimes, especially if I am not in the mindset or already occupied. We all are trying to find that one person but never rush to find them. Certain times you may end up in a situationship that you never intended to be in. I never try to hurt people’s feelings and just let them know straight up what’s going on if it’s made clear to me what it is you want. As a man, I am not going to lie, we are dumb sometimes if you don’t make things clear. I think everyone is dumb when they find someone they are interested in but don’t realize that some people have to get rid of demons before moving forward. You might not be what they are looking for right now but you shouldn’t make yourself something temporary if you can avoid it.