The craziest thing about life is that it’s all trial and error. We are living every moment learning, making mistakes and trying again. Nothing we do will ever be right because we are just living. Life has its ups and downs but there is no right way to live it. Talking to some people I know, who recently contemplated removing themselves from this world, we need to stop thinking that we aren’t doing enough.
Reconnecting to something is always a journey but reconnecting spiritually, that is something else. The road is never easy but it’s a road that I have to take.
Spiritual healing is not something easy that happens. All you need is time and people who support your journey. Never feel forced or pressured to do things you aren’t ready for. Part 1 – http://bit.ly/32L2WGg Part 2 – http://bit.ly/32LzuAb
Honestly for the past year I feel that the amount of pressure from people to get back into church has made me not even want to go. I grew up in the church, my uncle and aunt are pastors so I know for me it’s very essential to go to church. I personally just hate being pressured into doing things I am not currently ready to do. The moment you pressure me the longer it will take me to do something or I just won’t do it at all.
I have friends who are very religious and sometimes I want to smack them just because they always seem to try and push their ideas on me. Give me time and let me figure out how I’m going to get back in touch with God, if I even want to do that. Until my relationship with God is good I don’t think my future friendshipsrelationships will get better. I can’t see myself with have proper friendshipsrelationships if spiritually I am not good. My spiritual journey is literally MY spiritual journey and until I feel like I am back on the right path then things will have to take a backseat. It’s not that I don’t want to go to church and hear the word, I can hear that anywhere, but every time I go back to my home church I see my sisters casket in the front of the church. I just want to break down and cry sometimes. I made it to my home church for the 2ndweek and I want to continue. I have to get past it and get better.
People don’t understand how things are damaging. When you don’t have the right people supporting you but instead pressuring you then things will never get better. Everyone’s life journey is different and I am just trying to keep my faith while trying to understand the reason behind why things happen.
