Category Archives: Random Thought

(Poem) Black Heart

 

Heading back into my cave
Detoxing from my feelings
Keeping my thoughts to myself
I’ve become heartless
That heartless monster I said I’d never become
With not one ounce of care
My heart is black
Sitting in my cave
Rewinding back
Back to where my heart was black
They say listen to your heart
But my heart is black
Building my walls back up
Letting go of the feelings I once had
It’s not you, its me
I am darker then usual
Leaving everything behind
Trying this new wave
Hoping that I stop losing and finally win one
Realizing that no one is ever ready
Ima take a step back
            And let my heart become black
They brought me up
            To the point where I was the happiest
Then let me go
            Like I was a seasonal fixture
No longer in my feelings
I rather my heart be black
Black without a care in the world
I’m done chasing “what ifs”
            And I’m letting go of “what could be”
I’m done appreciating those
            Who don’t appreciate me
I’m done caring too much
            And being the old me
I’m overdosing on this “ I don’t give a fuck” mentality”
Losing friends along the way but
            I’m on this new wave
Gone with the wind
            I’ve become this heartless monster
Letting go of the old me
            And embracing the new
I’ve allowed my heart to become black
With not once ounce of care
I’ve become this black-hearted monster

~Kevin Pierre

(Poem) Her

 

I told her, thank you
For just being her
The her of my dreams
The her I can feel comfortable with
The her that’s in my thinking thoughts
Not the her that’s an object
But the her that’s whole presence makes me smile
The her that is perfectly imperfect
The her that gave me the chance to be me
Cupid finally listened to this hopeless romantic
Letting me do me, and finally find her
You know her . . . the her of my dreams
Not the her that’s only here for a season
But the her that wants to go the distance
The her that accepts my flaws and my addictions
The her that I appreciate more then the stars in the sky
No longer stuck in an endless loop of confusion
Because her actions give me reason not to
Trusting her with all of me
Because her hands wont let me go.
If I had a her
I would tell her, thank you
For just being her

The her of my dreams

~Kevin Pierre

The Claim Game (Part 2)

So we are back to this topic of the “Claim Game” (click onlink to read part 1).  This time I will be talking about a different aspect of the claim game. One that I know a couple of my friends are going through at the moment.

You know when you are interested in someone and you guys are talking back and forth for a good couple months. There is like an unofficial “your mine” type of stare that you give to each other, just saying you know what it is without either person actually saying something. Unofficially claiming the person but wanting it to be officially said. You guys do a lot of things in public, (kiss, hold hands, hug, etc.) but you still pass each other off as “just friends.” Then you ask yourself the question, “Why hasn’t he/she claimed me yet?”

Is it a fear of committing to one person? Fear of knowing you finally found someone good for you? Fear of your past catching up with you? Fear of people knowing you’re with someone? Fear of being tied down or maybe it’s just something we are just not ready for. Like I said in my previous blog, you never want to start claiming someone unless you are really serious about them. People will believe every word you say and run with it.

The “Claim Game” is basically giving someone a TITLE and hoping they act accordingly to the title that was given to them. Next time someone “Claims” you ask yourself “What have I done to allow them to give me a title and think that I am “CLAIMABLE?”

What If. . .(Part 2)

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It has been almost 2 years since my first blog (What If –Click here to read it) and I feel that I have evolved as an individual. I am still Kevin but I have learned so much from life. I don’t think about “what if” situations anymore because I feel those are really negative. It’s all about making “what if” situations a reality instead about wondering hopelessly.  
We can say we don’t like taking a risk but we can’t let our lives be defined by fears and “what if” situations. I feel that I have been the biggest risk taker, just because I like to live life. I take risks no matter the consequence, just to say, “yeah I did it.” The worst that could happen is that you hit a bump in the road and have to take a different route. Sometimes we get stuck in our heads wondering,” what if this doesn’t work out, what if this doesn’t go the way I want it to or what if I say something wrong” instead of just going with the flow and saying/doing what we want. When we start thinking “what if” then things fall apart and you start to question your actions whether good or bad.
Sometimes we look back on things we should have done instead of just moving forward, learning from them and creating a better version of ourselves. If we constantly look back at “what if” we can’t look forward and see “what will be.” Live life, take risks and don’t let “what if” situations define you.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the things you did” ~ Mark Twain